Tuesday, May 12, 2026

040521 - "Pre Extinction People" · Chapter 11

 


Chapter 11


    Pasqual missed his mother Huera (Tze-gu-juni or "Pretty Mouth" for too much of their lives. Her Chiricahua blood was nearly all he carried from his path of bifurcated cultural identity and may be what gave him such affinity for words and the weavings of meaning they brought. His father, Luke O'Mally was a Rastafari Jamaican writing a PhD thesis about the effects of cultural dislocation on the music of indigenous people when he and Huera met in Arizona; she was a matrilineal descendent of Cochise living in Nogales, and the two fell into a profoundly human impossibly complex love with no easy exit - Pasqual being the highest best outcome of that love. 


    Luke was murdered 3 days after the birth of his son; The murder was an act of random violence; He and Ernesto, Huera's youngest brother of two, were outside of a Nogales bar; the assailant vanished and Luke was conferred to the Great Spirit in the tradition of Pasqual’s tribe. The other brother, Jose Ortega, was presumed dead, "Missing In Action" MIA during the Tet Offensive of the American war in Vietnam. The Ernesto was more father to Pasqual than anyone, and with Luke the night of his murder. Stories of the two became the spoken rug of Pasqual's heritage: part fact, part fiction, though lacking gravity enough to hold a restless Pasqual in Nogales.


    Just after Pasqual’s 9th Birthday, his mother married an executive from an international aluminum mining concern. Her new husband was an Apache elder with right intentions, but narrow vision. A good husband to Huera, he made every effort to raise her son well, but fate would not make them a family.


    At 14, Pasqual left home, hitchhiking out of Arizona. A middle school teacher had challenged him to read Kerouac's"On the Road," remarking it would be too much for Pasqual's young mind; it was not, nor much employment for an itinerant Jamaican/Apache in post empire 'merica. Pasqual drifted into at Archer City, TX finding employement at “Booked Up,” where curiosity pulled him deeper into the dusty pages of Larry McMurty's eclectic selection of books provided discipline to the wild mind of young Pasqual once the floors were swept.


    Larry enjoyed the reclusive man-child who’d found his way to his store; the two spent hours exploring language, culture and the evolution of generational struggles described in books written, and yet to be written. Eventually Pasqual decided California would be best suited for the vision quest he owed to his Ma. So he took the employment pelf and bought a brand new 1984 Harley-Davidson Shovel-head on which to conquer the “Dream Machine” of Hollywood, CA. The day he arrived on a freeway feeder from the desert;early morning traffic pushed him westward off Hollywood; Blvd; then South at Highland; as though on a hook he banged a left at Mel’s Diner. By the time he'd finished a plate of 'Americana-does-Hollywood', Eggs, Bacon, Biscuits, and Sausage Pasqual was wolfing for his alluring waitress, Angela Vigoda. 3 hours later, the two were in the rictus of sexual ecstasy, a union they would explore alone/together for the next 36 years until the 2020 fall of civilization, which saw a world struggle sideways through a “Portal” for which many hoped and prayed would become a new humanity; while others clung reflexively devoted to traditional versions of “enlightenment”.


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    Angela Vigoda had been a “Valley Girl,” twenty years too late, She chased movie star dreams as a teenager. Both parents were deeply immersed in the “industry” and encouraged her dreams, however much vicariously satisfying their own fraught yearnings. By the time Angela was ingenue material, what was left of cinematography had been entirely subsumed by the computer generated graphics, to the degree that by the time the two met, it was not always clear whether the image on screen was a breathing, sentient being or the confabulation of some executive and a gifted 'ai'animator. There was just enough room in the inchoate dreams of the two to fit one another into the empty places of the other. Pasqual took occasional gigs as a stunt double, but Angela had grander plans for them and took up real estate sales, where she discovered a gift for working with people - they moved to Simi Valley and she gave birth to baby Jesus.

    During their 15 years in Simi Valley the internet went through vast changes and witnessed the transformation from “Information Superhighway” to the prototype for “Turnkey Tyranny.” The hand-over-fist profits from the Dot Com Empire had never been seen before, with overnight billionaires selling off startups to ever larger conglomerates who made the “restraint of trade” business model of the Robber Barrons seem like egregious philanthropy. As a result greater amounts of capital amassed in fewer hands than anytime in the planet’s long history of greed; the world wobbled toward ecological catastrophe more quickly than at anytime since the beginning of the industrial revolution. Mankind had been robbed of its sensory capacity to experience the world viscerally and increasingly relied on the “bytes” used as click bait generating virtual income out of the glut of products techno/capitalism produced, which social engineers flogged as essential accessories for the twisted “Good Life” of Edward Bernays


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    Zchnarkzy Marskburgh was trailing Reiman by drone as he drove South on the 101 toward the Face Race Campus; so when Reiman called Marksburgh, saying he'd been driving North. “What’s North of your place?,” Zchnarkzy asked, “except vacant vineyards and ‘Vaccine Free Zones’? Why don’t you come down to the ‘Face Race’ campus? The plant’s servers are still at 68.75% capacity, and I can divert 90% of that from subscribers to do any modeling we want to localize this ‘mythological digital cache’ we’re 'NOT' hunting.”


    “I have an appointment with Faik Besos at the new Babylon campus at Ghirardelli Square in ‘Friscoat 6:30 pm tonight. He approached me along the same lines you’re thinking.” Reiman broke the connection to let that sink in and called his goon squad staging outside the ‘Face Race’ campus for the kidnapping of Zchnarkzy Marskburgh; to amputate a massive percentage of the unholy triumvirate. “Old age and treachery will win over youth and ambition every time”, Reiman murmured to himself loud enough for the younger Faik Bezos to snicker at on the tapped transmission.


    Zchnarkzy Marksburgh stepped into his Chauffeured Escalade Town Car, preferring pavement to the moving target practice 

'helicopter privilege' for large bore laser scoped random gunfire that elite privilege had become after the 2nd killing wave of ’27. The route to his complex in the vineyards North of San Rafael was as secure as any stretch of rodeway in ‘merica post-Covid. He found freedom of movement essential in maintaining his command of events; what good was a $212 billion net worth, if you couldn’t flaunt it? His entourage of 6 were all special-ops veterans of the never-ending wars of 21st century ‘merica and his armor plated vehicle was nuclear blast rated, but the driver was still not prepared when a tractor trailer blocked their progress, and another blocked their retreat. The Escalade’s navigation screen went blank then was immediately replaced by a video of Zchnarkzy’s mother in realtime at the rear bumper of the tractor trailer blocking the retreat of Zchnarkzy’s Escalade.


    “Zchnark, I lied; I’m not meeting Faik at Ghirardelli Square.” Reiman's voice advised the unsurprised Marksburgh, “I brought your mother to exchange - her for you.” Before Zchnarkzy could respond to Reiman’s threat, the entire area was lit by Halogen lamps from a squadron of drones piping the voice of Faik Besos

    “You will all surrender immediately, or I will render a 1 mile radius from were Mrs. Marksburgh stands, radioactive.” The Escalade's passenger door opened and Zchnarkzy stepped out speaking into his smart phone activating loud speakers on the Escalade, 

    “Gentleman, what we have here is a failure to communicate; de-escalate this nonsense immediately or i will magnetize this handset and erase the only known recording of Aaron Schtartz’s explanation on how to hijack the entire world’s economy and where to hide it in plain sight - we have what I believe is called a ‘Mexican Standoff’.”


    There was then a full 5 minutes of complete silence as each party evaluated possible outcomes. Reiman was 1st to move, and stepped out from behind the back tractor; offered his elbow to Mrs. Marksburgh and calmly walked her to her son’s side; signaling the end of one melodrama and commencing struggle for the future of the world.


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    Lammele Dama removed his headphones, and shrugged - somewhat relieved by the averted mayhem he’d just monitored, however much that mayhem may have served efforts to save the preserve the species. 


    ‘Now would be a good time to flood the battlefield with red herrings,’ Lammele thought; picking up the secure phone, he dialed the encryption passcode to the Crocodile Cafe. “Buenos, es la Cafe de Cocodrillos, ¿cómo puedo ayudarte?” Guildern’s familiar voice was reassuring.


    In his most officious nasal tone Lammele addressed his friend, “Señor Seur, this is the United States Internal Revenue Service; we have a few questions to ask you. Is this a convenient time?” .  .. He loved to prank his friend of nearly 30 years; they’d met doing forensic work on the “Twin Trade Towers” in 2001 and remained close, however much physically distant ..  . the pause continued . ..


    “Lammele, you fuck - not funny! The file for the Schmuck Brothers is too strange, not much 'play' and once under way less room to move; there’s already blood in the water.”


    “It’s worse than you might imagine, friend. The uplink you're looking at is where either Reiman Curzewel, Faik Besos, or Zchnarkzy Marskburgh nearly radioactivated a two mile diameter of the 101 freeway in California south of Healdsburg; murdered Marskburgh’s mother as well as destroy 'the recording' of Aaron Schtartz describing how to mirror a duplicate and hide that copy of the world’s financial stockpile.” Lammele was rarely able to surprise his hyper-vigilant friend, and this news flash was no exception.


    “Yeah, there’s a big surprise - rats doing rat things. ‘the 3 cheeses of the apocalypse’. I’d heard that Schtartz had done some theoretical work on liberating the world economy, similar to Tesla’s concept of power sharing before Edison changed the game into the very lucrative business of transmitting energy. It shows how desperate traitors to the species can be about maintaining status quo.”


    “Let me ask you Guildern, is this bullshit, or is there foundation to the ‘pot of gold’ myth these three ciphers nearly went, Mutually Assured Destruction over, if only in a 'Vineland' kind of way"?


    “None of these sick fucks is stupid, though each afflicted by that greed without limits; To answer your question - Yes, Aaron was an unusually gifted Computer Scientist who was not plagued by the myopic limitations of so many of his brethren in the field; he more favored the creative bent that lent Master Einstein his prodigious leaps of imagination.”


    “Well whaddya’ say ole’ friend, are you up for one last rodeo? Have a little fun at the expense of almighty ‘Hubris,’ do you feel like throwing some gargantuan monkey wrenches into the machinery of greed?” Lammele was beginning to enjoy this and that was a good sign for all involved, except the minions of mayhem.


    “What are you thinking?” always a dangerous question to put to Lammele Dama, but Guildern Seur was a fearless fool kind of guy.


    “I think we should dust the trail; I'd seen a pair of shoes an innovative rustler in the Old West used - they left hoof prints. While you sift whatever you can about Aaron Schtartz’ work, I'll muddy the waters very selectively with digital chaff around any computer traffic ‘the cheeses’ generate in search of whatever it is we are looking for; the worm has turned, it is now a game of who’s doing who.”


    “I’m glad to hear your voice again Lammele, you sound good - clear as a bell. PTSD has taken its toll and so many we knew, simply resigned. You're an inspiration, and am glad you continue to draw breath. Take good care friend; keep me posted. We’ll talk soon.”


    The line went dead, and both men sat and reflected on their good fortune to know the other.

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    Carina rolled off Mordecaise, then knelt over his chest to lick the sweat that puddled at his solar plexus while making love. He relished her abandon for mixing bodily fluids and found the intimacy helped to focus his mind in ways he'd thought were gone. But there was something she was not sharing, maybe not consciously, but she was holding back something that may have been below the threshold of her awareness. She and Domhall had eaten many mushrooms during their time together. She spoke reverently about the purity of his spirit; they had even gone on a pilgrimage to the village where Maria Sabina had lived; but only to leave a modest offering in the local church and deliver a rose bush to 'the stranger' that Carina was drawn to. She made no apologies for her magic as a bruja and believed deeply in the “the little children” Maria Sabina conceived of as the natural world; conceived of and grieved for, believing they were irretrievably lost to the ‘darkening world’; Carina and Domhall devoted much of their union to reversing that fate.


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    Angela had developed an ingenious method of communicating between the team using Marksburgh’s own Face Race platform and revolving passkey codes based on currency fluctuations within any country of the world; one need only know the location of an operative to decipher which post contained which comment germane to the discussion. So within minutes of the end of their discussion, the principals understood the content and were able to deduce ramifications of Lammele and Guildern’s conversation - initiative being the guiding light · adapt and improvise. Domhall and his brothers, Reynaldo and Demsford had been deceptively close, and their successive deaths of affected Domhall deeply with increasing intensity. They'd all struggled for calm after the death of their parents; then found themselves children, worth millions in a world losing its moral compass. Domhall was the anchor, though he himself was solitary having difficulty forming close bonds with any but his brothers. 


    Their guardian Lammele Dama insisted each obtain an education to Bachelor degree level before they gained unfettered access to their fortunes. Domhall began to study law, but switched to Computer Science finding the wooly west nature of an emerging dark web intriguing. Demsford and Reynaldo took the Grand Tour in Europe when of age; Demsford took a liking to Paris as a young swain of uncommon intellect and sensitivity, choosing to study fine art at the École des Beaux-Arts; Lammele Dama’s kindly but acerbic critiques precluded conceit, and Demsford had been delivered from the venal fantasies which talent and devotion to fine art were prey. Reynaldo chose literature and the world of ideas - eternally wondering what his life might have become had his parents survived. 


    None of the brothers had a concern about livelihood and so wandered on occasion into excess and the dangers of “dissipated youth” only to find either Lammele, Domhall or both laughing at their  folly. Reynaldo was the more wounded in these excursions and for a time was laid low with an addiction to heroin; saved through the ministrations of a prostitute in the “Little Saigon” of Southern California; shortly after which she became a buddhist nun leaving a stamp on the romantic mind of Reynaldo Schmuck.


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    Carina struggled to open her mind to the questions Mordecaise asked while he tried to help her work through her grief at the recent loss of Domhall and to better understand his mysterious demise. But the chasm between cultures - a Bavarian organ builder and a transplanted Chilango Bruja on the slopes of passion in Oaxaca Mexico seemed too vast a gulf to bridge meaning. However a single fact 

about the journey of Domhall’s paperless corpse from Oaxaca Mexico to Montevideo Uruguay remained after unrelenting inquiry in search of connections between his death and his disappearance - one obscure fact · the name of an Argentine Cocaine addict, “Tito Rivera”


    During the interrogation of the man who’d tried to frame Mordecaise for smuggling currency into Mexico, Commandante Gonzales had been unable to learn who was behind the failed frame, but he did learn the name of the mule who delivered the $25,000 USD to the operative who committed the fraud at Aeropuerto CDMX - Tito Rivera; who'd taken a return flight to Uruguay; authorities there were still seeking his whereabouts. Carina had proven to be a better source of police intelligence than the Abogada Sra. Ley, though the two remained in contact with each other several times a week.


    Often when Carina and Domhall had taken mushrooms, he'd tried to communicate telepathically with her; she never understood what he was trying to convey - she an artist, he a computer scientist - their common language was very much on the physical plane. Domhall’s great interest in nonverbal communication is possibly what informed their very evocative sex life. Besides the psychoactive approach, he explored a variety of pictograph prompts to stimulate a nonverbal channel of communication with her. From what he'd said about his parent’s death; then after the deaths of his brothers in quick succession, Carina surmised his interest in nonverbal communication was more than academic; she deduced he was attempting to penetrate to the afterlife.  


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Friday, April 24, 2026

Extinction Chronicles - Friday 17 April 2o26 ·



greed 

“Greed,” was the french journalist’s reply when explaining why humanity will survive. I was riding in transport from the airport in Kuta, Bali to Ubud on my 1st journey in a very long time; i was sanguine, strong, and fiercely determined to arm the planet for what i was, and remain convinced will be a protracted struggle for the high ground of humanity’s future - 20 years later only less sanguine, less strong, and more fiercely determined · However what seemed ‘protracted’ then, has become more like an episode from the sainted Mr. Serling and a more ethical use of Maester Tolkien’s ‘Palantir’ - using our planet to exemplify the shift of the fungible nature of ‘Brownian Physics;’ that or the loaf of bread theory of the universe is responding to my traverse across the paradox of the ’everything is now spectrum’ of reality; whatever it turns out to be, my sense is that Leonard Cohen’s statement about getting older and being more convinced about having absolutely no control over anything was just a ‘contraband quote’ smuggled from Orwell’s gulag of the future, “But what do I know¿” - Michel de Montaigne ·


Prior to my ‘Journey to the East,’ i spent 14 years in the company/married to a wounded Walloon i met the thanksgiving day after the end of my 2nd marriage; they were joyous times with much learning and much suffering - rich. One standout was the slow, almost glacial transition of the culture. She, my consort was a tangle of realities, but mostly starved for ‘meaning’, so everything took on a brilliance of just having been discovered and the pristine quality purpose one gets from zeal. One such enthusiasm was food and food supplies which coincided with the mutation of Ms. Gooche’s to Whole Foods; and like the couplet/theme movie releases of the big studios; from: Trader Joe’s to Trader Joe’s Inc. The reason i belabor the point is here where i live in Southern Mexico, after the highjacking of ‘Hipster Doofus’ Easter Vacation locations “Trending” by the Obama starlets the same has happened to the zocolo, “El Viejo de Agua,” and possible the saddest the mutation by ’success’ of my favorite food store, which i’ll not name for fear of effecting its evolution; suffice it to say; what had been at one time an earnest service-oriented supplier of health oriented foodstuffs, has fallen prey to its own press - “bigshotville” · claims another victim.


How much of this screed/essay is from projection of my own fear of success or lack thereof, et. al., i can’t say; like a blind man with a gimp i’m limping my way forward toward that pool of brilliant ‘white’ light allegedly found in the bardo. I do believe, however if the notion of what constitutes ‘success’ is not retrieved from Freud’s nephew Bernays’ unconscionable ‘bait and switch’, the damage of integrating the body politick’s concept of appetite with the capacity for nutritional contamination by the boogeyman, “a iEye” will not only have assassinated our species by thirst for its greed of water, but from starvation from nutritional degradation in the bargain. Part of why it is so sad for me to watch a store begin from an orientation for wholesome foods and service to the population it serves, to then be seduced by a siren song of “fame and fortune” chained to an addiction for a mythical focus from a virtual world by a +/-5v shackle affixed to one’s wrist where it is in perpetual traverse toward the ‘brainstem’ like the creature inside of Ensign Chekov’s Helmet in Star Trek “Wrath of Khan” - that’s just fucking sad..


“Enough or Too Much.” - William Blake · My Bachelors in English took me 22 years to complete, the quote seemed so appropriate for my graduation cake - living in a quonset style warehouse off an abandoned railroad spur with my 3rd wife in an art colony hogged from the former Pabst Blue Ribbon brewery, very close to the origins of El Pueblo de Nuestra Señora la Reina de Los Angeles. The twin towers still stood, i was in love and erosion to the republic was just nuisance white noise, rather than the shrill ‘shitstorm’ of today; a naive calm with optimism fitting the Optimist Home of Figueroa was the hothouse fiction i breathed. So, on one of those post B.A. afternoons, the Hungarian Belà and i while doing the Bohemian Fandango - (redwinebefore12) convinced each other the time was ripe to become millionaires doling out our creative elan to the ‘great unwashed’ enhancing a future waiting to reward our unique originality; him for his fotos; me for my stone carving. I was then 12 months into a commission, i’d accepted against my better judgement; a pair of hands for a POMmy, ‘JagUar’ mechanic repairing the low hanging fruit of old money Pasadena and his ’Septic’ dame. When i say ‘naive calm’; i was 12 months into a project i couldn’t price for lack of foundation: nor had i demanded a ‘good-faith’ deposit for what i expected would yield $15-$20k - a reasonable figure for an ‘object d’art’ hand carved by a student of Jose deCreeft and well into any industry standard for a ‘stone mason’s apprenticeship’ having carved much granite over many years under the tutelage of Anthony Amato, an autodidact artist, 5 generation stone mason from NYC in whose close supervision, however tempestuous i carved: 1 meter long screwdriver, a 3/4 x 1 1/4 meter square knot, a 2 3/4 meter long double helix and a 2 meter long left femur.    


Clue: a product line of well-engineered one-off stacked-rock fountains fed from solid granite cisterns; augmented with Olmec masks of faux rock resin geared to move by the thousands is not the path to riches. Within nine years from that bucolic afternoon of unrestrained greed: i was gutted from an emergency appendectomy at County U.S.C. for the indigent, my wife bailed 5 days later having hijacked the granite femur for blood money from my best man at our wedding in order to repair her last remaining front tooth rather than the affront of full dentures. (the femur was later abandoned in Denver as part of a real estate transaction - the ‘best man’ was still skedaddling); when refinancing our dream she’d had no hand in; the deed became ‘shared’ which only pertained when i’d been given notice; the hands are still mine, JagUar mechanic; had changed his mind sometime around that bucolic drunken wet dream of ‘enlightened self interest’ as opposed to the adult confrontation with the “shadow” of unmet needs of having been publicly ridiculed by a parent as a 15 year old ‘vampire’, for grieving differently for her failed marriage than she was able to understand, or Greed might manifest as the demi- narcissist rantings of someone unable to articulate the actual threat his envy of other’s more tangible success has created for the general public. Maybe greed is the inability for self-sacrifice that peers out from the labyrinth of human archetypes at the most unexpected moments in our curious history; i really don’t know anymore yet remain convinced our ability for self-reflection isn’t always found at the dead end of a solipsistic cul-de-sac.     


solidarność 

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jts

14 April 2o26

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Tuesday, April 14, 2026

Extinction Chronicles - Thursday 9 April 2o26 ·

The Demise of Sr Pablo Bautista

as seen through the eyes of another man’s son

 It is now 2:18 p.m. the afternoon of Thursday 9 April 2o26; Sr. Bautista died around 3 a.m. in the morning. I know this because Jose Luis Bautista, one of his sons texted me that morning after I had woken; Jose Luis had sat with his father through the night from the time of his death. I am proud to know someone that wise; from what I learned much later, my oldest brother had stayed with our mother throughout the night of her death; Our Pop arranged his parting a little differently. He was with his consort in California; the elder pair of siblings were together in Ithaca, NY; my younger brother and I were in Mt. Vernon, WA; Sr. Pablo Bautista had different ideas still, for his passing having surrounded himself with family - members of which are still arriving 12 hours later. I live over the entrance to the family compound. There is no reason for me to leave; i’ll remain here to witness from a distance the focus each member of his family brings to this process, otherwise i’d try to apply my rubric to a cultural form about which i understand nothing. Sr. Bautista only knew me from a distance or from what his family has shared. He became ill 6 months back from cirrhosis, the same disease which killed my paternal grandfather. Sr. Bautista has deteriorated while enduring greater and greater pain; prior to that, he was a quiet dignified man who did not invite open curiosity; i can only share what i’ve witnessed from his family who have been devoted to him, taking great care that he would not suffer alone.


There is much about where i now live that i do not understand, yet there is much i know about where i am from, but understand no better. My father was a practical fellow who spent his life studying, if it wasn’t books, it was people. He had two wives to my three. He refused to marry his last consort; she was an amicable accountant and from what i could see, good enough company to dance with. However, she like his 2nd wife bailed when his ‘charm’ wore thin, and his gift of the coin collection didn’t muster ‘community property level of concern’ during his demise. He lived for a time in assisted living, then the ‘supervised wing’ in the centrally located convalescent home (against my sister’s better judgement who’d have brought him to the East Coast for precision care). His meander into dementia at the supervised convalescent home was interrupted when while trotting for the toilet, he tumbled hip-first into the ergonomically engineered shower splash and crushed the neck of his trochanter. My deeply loving sister faced the unenviable choice of hip-replacement and the statistical diminution of Pop’s eclectic 86 year old mental acuity or letting him savor what was left of this panoply of suffering we deem a life; she, as only his daughter could, bravely let him suffer cogently. 


Pop schooled me brutally on clarity of the written word; i first understood a letter to be part of an alphabet; as part of a word; as part of a sentence .  .. now 70+, after 50+ years of honing his writing advocacy and ducking his Jesuit severity: i just began a testimony to one man then conflated that effort with the loss of Pop. If Sr. Bautista suffered such split focus, i didn’t find much discursive behavior in his family’s diligence to his well being. I watched the two sons closely coordinate the 24/7 necessary care cycle, though one a successful business owner, and another son’s relentless, task-oriented demeanor, his daughter’s business-like constancy tracking her daughter; attending her mother; and understanding her brother. Even Sr. Bautista’s widow hunts Chayotes out of the Guaje tree (Leucaena Leucocephala) with a LASER focus; easily 9x her height, the Oaxaca namesake tree towers over her yard draped with Chayote vines, and she, armed with no more than a too-long bamboo lance, defies physics as she plucks fruit from the heavens with her rooted-tripod logic.


Sr. Bautista has left a grieving family who have applied his loving lessons about persistence and quiet resolve to his entry into the mystery of bardo as they’ve attended his battle to live a moment longer during the past 6 months. Our two cultures are so vastly different about funerals, i feel increasingly unable to provide insight or even objective impressions for either. What I don’t understand about Sr. Bautista’s demise has highlighted a blurring of purpose and reason imprinted on the mantle of my supposedly highly rational and informed North American raiment as citizen of ‘civilization’s supposed pinnacle’. I was raised to wear, flaunt, and taunt with ‘exceptionalism/manifest destiny/city-on-the-hill’ invulnerability, including the faux dissent woven into the fabric of my nation’s ‘endstagecapitalist’ mythology. The pompous self-delusion you may or may not be savoring in the forgoing missive is, forgive the “Trumpism”, par for that course.


I’ve contrasted two histories, with a mixture of objectivity, romanticisation and as big a dollop of sympathy as i can dredge from my congenitally solipsistic myopia. Sr Bautista died within the week, and i’ve learned far more about him in those days than some few years of having crossed paths. What i have learned about his life has deepened my sadness for his unnecessary suffering, as well as sharpened my compassion for the weight of difficulty his family has inherited. The process has drawn in high relief the delusion of mitigation as pertains death; nothing i can see will ever alter the inevitable dislocation and confusion left in its wake. I’ve written with a conceit i could relieve some of the Bautista family’s suffering, only to discover i have yet to resolve very much of my own grief about death, much less diminish any grief from my family; it has taken me 15 years just to learn I am not responsible for what they feel, nor believe that assertion enough that i would cease this fatuous endeavor. However i am 1,000 times more grateful to my parents for arming me with the creative tools to explore such confusion. Watching Sr. Pablo Bautista’s family laid low; then to recover, and then to replant, and rejoice in the qualities they have struggled so bravely and lovingly to prolong, has helped me to better understand why to struggle, and for that Sr. Pablo Bautista, I thank you, and wish you God Speed. 

 

solidarność 

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jts

9 April 2o26

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